I didn’t
choose to spend Christmas day alone. Sometimes things happen or other people make
decisions that affect our choices. It can be something upsetting, like the end of a relationship or perhaps somebody suddenly gets taken ill, or it could be related to a surprise and somebody else's happiness. Happiness, we are told, means
spending Christmas with friends and family. There is a definite taboo around
spending Christmas on your own. The little voices inside your head have a whale
of a time and get great pleasure from this scenario: ‘Spending Christmas alone?
Aint you got no friends? What about your family, don’t they like you either?
Loser. Wierdo.’ And many more besides. I feel slightly embarassed spending
Christmas day on my own, in fact, I can’t even bring myself to go to the local shop.
Why? Because then I’d have to speak to people, wish them ‘Merry Christmas’, and
I can’t do it. One, because I have sprained my ankle and can’t walk very far, and
two, I don’t feel like being very sociable.
I found a
student website where somebody was spending Christmas on their own and was
asking for help. Although some responses offered help, others used the pages as a way to either pay back old
debts or brush aside the student’s unhappiness: ‘So do you spend most days
alone? Are you an introvert? Do you like being with people? If you answered
yes, yes, no – there you go then, problem solved.’
In fact, there is
all sorts of advice on the Internet for those alone at what is supposed to be,
‘a time for family and friends’. Personally I prefer Grinch’s sentiment, ‘I
must find a way to keep Chrsitmas from coming!’
Here are a
few ideas:
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Look for opportunities to spend
time with people in your community.
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Fill your time with
productive tasks.
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Go for a walk. Get some exercise
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Use it as time to stay home, treat
yourself to a beauty treatment, play some music and sing out loud, watch a
series on netflix,
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go to sleep early and think positive
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Allow yourself to be sad if you need to.
You don't have to force yourself to be positive all the time.
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Go to church.
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Get drunk.
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Flee the country!
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Do good works at a homeless shelter
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Stock up on food and drink treats, and cook
your perfect lunch, whether it's turkey with all the trimmings or an Indian
ready-meal. (Provided you can walk to the shopsand get the food!)
·
Buy yourself a lovely present to open -
something you've wanted for ages.
Or my favourite, except I don’t have a car:
· Bundle up, get in the car and take off.
When you are out on Christmas Day, people think you are either on your way to
or from some family event! People wave at each other more often. People are
very friendly on Christmas Day. And then you come home, and appreciate the peace
and quiet of your solitary life, with no family to argue with, no dishes to
wash....and no one to hog the couch or snore.
There are those who want to be home alone for Christmas. The
idea that anyone might actively seek to spend the day on their own can make others
feel uncomfortable - even those who freely admit they don't get on with their
family and find the day pure hell. But for many people there's a world of
difference between solitude and loneliness. For example, one woman at work, told
me that she no longer told colleagues she spends Christmas alone. "I can't
bear the way they treat me like a tragic victim and offer to have me round for
lunch to 'cheer me up'. They fail to grasp that I spend the day alone through
choice and I've grown tired of having to explain myself."
Sometimes spending Christmas alone can help alleviate the pressure of
living by someone else’s rules, customs and traditions especially if you are not
in the right frame of mind to do so. However, doing ths year in year out might
not be so enjoyable as it sounds.
There are
those who would tell you: I’d love to
spend Christmas Day on my own, I would eat a bit, drink a bit, watch a bit of
tell and generally try to enjoy myself. I don’t need other people around me at
Christmas, and certainly not my family. I hate them.
Because of
course families are an important part of Christmas and of course there is all the
difficulties that go with having one. I have a family that I created. This
year, unfortunately, they thought I already had plans and so made their own.
I’m happy with that and I would never put pressure on them just so I could have
company on this over-inflated one day of the year, and I’m lucky, we’ll get
together for Boxing Day.
The amount
of money that is being made out of Christmas, a time that celebrates the birth
of God’s son, Jesus, is grotesque. How do those glossy adverts make people feel
who spend this day on their own, perhaps not through their own choice? Inadequate? Depressed? Again I’m
lucky because I don’t get taken in by the false worlds that are created by the
powerful medium of television. However, when I was younger and inexperienced, I did
believe that the chintzy people in adverts really did love each other and spent
their time partying, from noon until the early hours of the morning.
The
Women's Royal Volunteer Service estimates that around a million elderly people
will spend this Christmas alone. It's no coincidence that the Samaritans
receive more calls over the festive period (one every six seconds) than at any
other time of the year. After all, it can be hard to reconcile an empty home
with all the chocolate-box portrayals of family togetherness in the media. "There's
a huge pressure on people to conform at Christmas, and that can cause heartache
for those who don't have a traditional family circle," says social
psychologist Arthur Cassidy.
This is
not the first Christmas I’ve spent on my own. When I was younger, I did spend a couple of
Christmasses with my birth family, but mostly I spent Christmas in care. The
last time I was alone on Christmas Day, was in 1974, when I was 16 and had just
left the Children’s home where I spent my childhood. In some ways that was much
more difficult than today. I was used to being with seven other children, it
was noisy, it was bright, there lights and lovely food. Christmas dinner with
crackers and silly jokes and hats, my mouth is watering at the thought. Many people like me, still find Christmas difficult, whether alone or with
friends and family. This could be because for some kids who have been in care,
they will have experienced some of the worst abuses imaginable at this time of year and not
necessarily by their families. Christmas can bring out
the beast in some people. And the inheritance of our pasts can mean, there is something about the emotion of this
particular season that can make togetherness, whether with friends or family,
almost unbearable.
The point
here is that whether we are with family, friends, or alone, Christmas can be difficult.
Some mothers, get themselves into debt. They exhaust themselves through
shopping, cleaning and cooking leading up to Christmas and they don’t enjoy the
day because often after the initial excitement and enthusiasm, it is mothers
that are left to clear up, while others get drunk, argue or play with their new
toys. And then there are those who are homeless, they see the glitz and tinsel
in shop windows and who knows what memories that triggers for them or how
isolated and alone they must feel in their shop doorway homes. And what about
those that are in war situations right now, the men, women, mothers and children suffering
abominable injuries - surely we are so fortunate in this country whether alone at Christmas or not.
Maybe for some, this is
the way to cope? Think of others who are so much worse off than ourselves? I
don’t think it is, but helping others is a way to give our lives some meaning. Christmas Day has become a product of our imaginations, the
original meaning for millions has now been lost. Many of us are riding in a
fast car, grabbing bits of Christmas as we speed through December and ending up
on the day, exhausted, disappointed and skint.
Decisions
we take affect others, and we often forget to take responsibility for our
actions. One year I decided not to have a Christmas tree and went down the
woods to get some twigs, that I then decorated with baubles and lights. That
was the year that mum went mad, said my children! Our relationship with excess
effects others. This year I thought about telling friends and family that I
didn’t want any presents, and that I would prefer money donated to Save the
Children http://www.savethechildren.org.uk/ or Water Aid http://www.wateraid.org/uk/ because there are still millions of children without
water, food and shelter. I did tell some friends and family but I still wanted to have some presents! Next year I will try harder, I don't want to live a life of excess. Perhaps I'll just do more throughtout the year. One friend has suggested Kiva.
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As this day draws to close I realise that I haven't really been alone. I spent a lot of the time communicating with friends and family, starting in the morning with telephone calls to long-term partner, close friends, children, and other family members. And then on to the Internet where I saw Twitter messages from various friends in the community and finally Facebook where I wished and was wished a very, very happy Christmas.
